Day 48

Well, here it is, Day 48.  Last week I got my cardiac clearance, met with the nutritionist, and had my endoscopy.  This afternoon I got a call from the pulmonary office to schedule that appointment, and I called the psych office to see if they had forgotten about me.  Apparently they had left a message way back on May 8th, but I have been checking messages daily and it was never on the machine.  I was able to schedule both of the psych appointments, and as of right now, all of my clearances will be done by June 11th.

Since I am trying to get everything done before my insurance rolls over at the end of June, I called the doctor's office to see if I could schedule the next step since I knew when my appointments would be done.  The lady said that it is against their policy to schedule the appointment until they have received all of the clearances.  Then she said it would be impossible to get my surgery before the end of June.  I was a bit upset with her because I have been telling everyone there from day 1 that I needed to get it all done by then, and no one told me that this would be an impossible task.  I have taken days off of work to get my clearances done (days without pay for that matter), and I would have opted to just wait until summer when I had lots of free time to do everything.  My bubble was completely popped.  I automatically went into shut down mode, and decided that I could not get it done because we could not afford it.

Now that I have had some time to think about it, I know that this has happened for a reason.  God has it all figured out, and it will be done in His timing, not mine.  I will keep the rest of my appointments (even though I will have to take more time off work).  We will find a way for this to happen unless God completely closes the door.  I would be disappointed, but I would move on.

So, for now I still don't know when my surgery will take place, but I am still moving in the right direction.